Tuesday, April 15, 2014

AN EXCERPT FROM NOTHING SACRED


Citadel Mall
Charleston, South Carolina
June 14, 2007
Thursday

1

            Choosing?
            I love choosing.
           Having a choice is one of the benefits I derive for this little hobby of mine. That and cleaning the environment of filth. No, really, I have an unnatural sense of cleanliness. To the point of being obsessive, some people might think. I’ll give you an example. I carry razor blades on me to scrape off all those annoying pieces of sticky paper plastered on everything; display boards, bathroom stalls, actually, anywhere messy pigs migrate and have the incessant need to vandalize. Back before the neurotic use of cell phones, I would even clean off public telephones. In case of an emergency and I needed to use one, (God forbid) the phone had to be spotless. Bacteria free and purely pristine. Some people look at me strangely. They stare. They think I have a problem. I don’t. I just prefer it that way. Clean and tidy.
            No one assigned me this position. I took it. Like most things in my life. Not to mention the fact that I really enjoy getting what I want, when I want it. Better yet, that incredible high I achieve in getting away with it. Kind of like playing God. That’s an added bonus.
            A dividend.
            The mall is one of my favorite places to hang out. To “choose” from, that is. It’s big and spacious with plenty of people milling about, roaming in and out of brand-name stores, spending all their hard-earned cash. I stay inconspicuous with all the foot traffic. Not that you would notice anything different about me from the next person. You wouldn’t. Trust me. Well, you might think I’m attractive. Give me a second glance, a look, maybe even…choose me.
            I have my eye on a girl. I’ve been watching her real close. Her boyfriend’s been calling her “Angie.” Of course, I immediately think of Mick Jagger.
            “Angie, Angie, when will those clouds all disappear…?”
            But, I’m running out of time, checking my watch a little too frequently, waiting to make my move. I can’t afford to be careless. Nobody can ever afford to be careless. Everything according to plan. Just like the last time. They still haven’t found the body. I doubt they ever will. That’s how good I am. That stupid slut never knew what hit her.
            Beautiful, Angie…      
            Her boyfriend is walking in my direction. He bops toward me, a loaded spring in each step. She follows close behind him like a dizzy puppy, texting on her cell phone. Dainty, pretty fingers fly over the miniature keyboard in a heated frenzy. They’re eating a disgusting pretzel, dipping it into some gooey orange sauce and feeding it to one another. Taking pictures, laughing. Posting on Facebook, or Twitter or some other social media outlet. How cute. I play cool and continue sipping on my coffee. I don’t pay them the slightest bit of attention. They sit down next to me on the wooden bench. Her arm brushes up against me. Accidentally. I almost drop my Styrofoam cup. Her sweater is tight, cottony; her nipples stand erect, playing hide-and-seek through the fabric. Her jeans are faded, that “washed-a-thousand-times” blue. Sewn on her ass is a patch. It reads: “DON’T GO THERE.” I can’t help but be offended, because that is precisely what I did. I went there.  And everybody else, too. Another year and she’ll be ruined. A whore for sure.
            “Sor-ry,” she coos with that sweet, saccharine southern drawl.
            I look the other way. I bite at my upper lip.
            I feel a tap on my shoulder. “Excuse me, do you have the time?” Her boyfriend asks. They compete for the thickest accent. She wins. Hands down. He looks like he just walked off the set of a Steven Spielberg movie. You know the type. All American, wispy brown hair, athletic. Already has facial hair. He wears braces to correct an overbite. Sewn with confidence on the front of his athletic jersey is a capital "F.". Does it stand for varsity football? Or “fucker?” I bet he has a nice, big cock. Everything overdeveloped. Shows off in the shower after gym class giving less fortunate boys a complex. Yeah, you definitely know the type.
            I extend my arm in their direction, advertising my expensive Rolex wristwatch. I graze my hand up against Angie…
            Beautiful Angie…
            I don’t speak. I just act polite and smile.
            He thanks me as they jump up and leave their trash behind. That really pisses me off. Filthy pigs! I snatch up the paper napkin coated with mustard or cheese and walk to the trashcan. I don’t take my eyes off her. Not for one second. I pitch the pig’s trash in the receptacle, take a hand sanitizer cloth from my pocket and follow them. Slowly. Her walk attracts the attention of several people, predominately older men. Their heads turn as she passes by. She is a looker. And to tell you the truth, I don’t blame them.
            That’s why I chose her.
            I must act quickly now.
            “Wait for me,” I hear him say as he enters the men’s restroom.
            “No way! I’m coming with you.”
            Smart girl. But not smart enough.
            She follows him into the bathroom. An elderly man slowly exits using a cane. He shakes his head in disapproval before disappearing into a sea of shoppers. I stand still. I wait for the right moment. I pick up the latest bestseller at a Barnes & Noble Bookstore. Interesting. I choose James Patterson. A romance novel. He’s changing genres. I chuckle as I place the book back into its bin. I’m not an avid reader of the genre.
            Her boyfriend exits the restroom and positions himself as guard at the door. Such gallantry. After a few seconds, she exits. She wipes her hands on her ass and pushes back light, curly hair across her shoulders. It falls in perfect ringlets to her waist. They kiss and grab at each other’s hands. Lovebirds. She must be what? All of thirteen. He looks older, at least seventeen. And, I can tell Angie isn’t the first girl he’s ruined. He has that cocky stride of a winner. A peacock practicing his skills, perfecting his lines, sharpening his tool for the next young thing that falls prey to his desires.
            It’s up to me now. I must save her before he spoils her. Ruins her untouched excellence. I must be quick about it. I hurry across the polished tile floor toward the main exit. I wave good-bye to the pimply-faced barista at Starbucks who made me my coffee. My café latte. See? Nobody knows. Nobody suspects. I pass by the miniature police station located at the mall entrance. I smile at the nice black woman sitting behind the desk browsing through a magazine. She nods her head in my direction.
            The glass doors open automatically. A gentle, cool breeze invigorates me. I take advantage of the last hint of cold weather and take a deep rejuvenating breath. The warmth from the sun surrenders to dusk. Magenta ribbons streak across a pale blue sky.
            I keep a keen eye on the two of them as they stumble over each other’s hungry advances. They head down a row of parked cars. He unlocks her side first. Always a gentleman. He has a jeep!
            He would have a jeep.
            I quicken my pace two rows over, grabbing at the bottom of my coat pocket for keys, checking over my shoulder for fear I might lose them. I unlock the door to my rent-a-car and slide in. I lower the window to dispel the heat. Engines turn over. I watch through the tinted glass of my windshield. I remove my sunglasses to get a better view. No obstructions.
            My plan is in place. On the passenger seat beside me, positioned in plain view is my freedom. My tools, encased in orderly fashion at the bottom of a small, nondescript wooden box. My exquisite instruments. I run my hand over the top of the box. Folded neatly beneath the box is the dress she will wear. The cotton smock, white like the virgin she still is. It will soon turn red from the blood she will spill. For her sins. My soul will then be cleansed. Then and only then.
            My small sacrifice.
          I put the car in reverse and back out of my tight parking space. Guiding the automatic gearshift into drive, I turn the steering wheel in their direction.
            The sacred ritual will take place at sunset.
            You want to know why? I planned it that way.


June 14, 2007
Thursday
6:22 PM
2

            Every Thursday evening like clockwork, George Madden chauffeured Edna into Charleston for her weekly prayer meeting. They left early, while it was still light out cause George suffered from terrible night blindness. He’d been to the doctor. But, what could the freakin’ doctor do for night blindness? Edna complained. She hated driving. She hated just about anything having to do with an automobile. Then again, Edna complained pretty much about everything. Twenty-two years of marriage. Martial bliss, George called it. Oh well, he’d adjusted, or so he kept telling himself. Anyway, about his night blindness. George took the usual precautions. He turned down the rearview mirror to stop the oncoming glare, drove on well-lit roads, and tried using streets with those sparkle-bumps on the divider. What else? Oh yeah, he wore glasses. He damn well better. His vision wasn’t so good any more.
           It was a stupid saying, but Edna said it anyway. “George, ya’ got Coke bottles for glasses.” They kind of snickered, not because it was funny, or anything, but because she’d been telling him that for some time now. Kind of nostalgic. Even with all the precautions in place that night, nothing was gonna prepare George’s old eyes for the sight they were about to behold.
            Edna and George lived about twenty miles outside Charleston in a little community known as Goose Creek. It was a quiet place. Lots of sprawling, two-level rental complexes equipped with tennis courts, swimming pools and nicely manicured lawns. The developers wanted the tenants to feel like they were getting something for their money. They enjoyed it all right. Anyway, they were driving into the City, passing by the usual scenery – strip malls, movie theaters and restaurants. George remembered Edna saying something about wanting to try a new fast food joint that just recently popped up. A movie star had opened up a whole slew of them. Edna sure enjoyed her movie stars. She read all about them in those supermarket gossip magazines. The Globe. The Enquirer. George remembered saying something like, “Yeah, yeah,” because Edna also loved eating. Out. She used to be one hell of a cook back when the kids were home, but now those pots and pans just hung above the stove and collected dust. Money flew right out the window on a count of them eating out every night.
           George dropped Edna off at the church located on Meeting Street, not far from the University. He pecked at her cheek and watched her skedaddle across the concrete pavement to the entrance of The Circular Congregation Church. Her big ass created tidal waves underneath her flowery, floor-length skirt. It looked more like a tent to George.
            Oh Edna, when did you get to be so…big?
           George was proud to mention, perhaps even brag a bit, that he’d maintained his same weight since being discharged from the military back in the late sixties.
            Seeing Edna’s large ass wiggle like a Jell-O mold got George’s blood a going.
           George, why don’t you treat yourself tonight and go out to that Pussy Place out on Old Towne Road?
          Entrance was dirt-cheap. Besides, why not? Won’t be long before George’s ass was seated in a booth at some chain restaurant watching Edna stuff her fat face anyway.
            Oh, hell yeah, that’s what I’ll do!
            Before George could count to three, that old Buick Regal seemed to have a mind all its own and was steering itself right over Memorial Bridge. Yep, tonight George was going in search of a little action.
           On the radio, George was listening to that song… “If I can’t have you, I don’t want nobody baby, if I can’t have you…” …just singing along as he drove, having himself one hell of a good time. It was getting darker though and Old Towne Road had a stretch of highway up ahead that was pretty isolated. Hell, somebody could get lost out here if they weren’t paying attention. There weren’t a lot of streetlights either. Darkness was landing on George faster than a Boeing 747. He started getting a little jumpy. He sat upright in his seat and adjusted his glasses. He flicked down the rearview mirror and prayed for a speck of white, a dot of relief. Some kind of light. Pink neon sure would be nice. What was the name of that place? “Pink Pussy?”  “Pussy Palace?” Hell, he knew it had pussy in it. Off the record, George didn’t want anybody getting the wrong idea. He didn’t do this a lot. Not every day, anyway. He sometimes even missed a week or two. Sometimes.
            A neon sign came blasting into view right in the nick of time. A blessing. “Silk Stockings.” If he hadn’t come upon it soon, he was about ready to do a U-turn and head right straight back to Edna. Mother. Guilt. He hated it. But, forget about all that now. He was here! Soon he’d be lost in a lush oasis of luscious smelling booty before he could count to ten.
            He parked the Buick in the rear, next to a reeking dipsey-dumpster. Smelled like shit, but he preferred it. He didn’t like flashing his dirty laundry around. Besides, it wasn’t nobody’s damn business anyway. He had yet to witness somebody he knew out here. Strange, huh? And, if he did, what would they have on him? Nothing! So fuck ‘em! That’s what George would say. Whooo hooo! George was in a mood tonight! Watch out “Pussy Palace,” or whatever the hell the name was.
         He paid his money at the door and strolled cocksure into the place like he owned it. In the background, the DJ Herb was talking shit, as usual.
       “For your credit card, you can have a private lap-dance with Candy Cane in the Champagne Lounge…”
            George liked Candy. She was nice and all, but for a hundred bucks he wanted something more than a lap-dance. Besides, he played it safe. He left all his credit cards at home. Just in case the urge fell upon him. He got into trouble once with that. Never again. Instead, he moseyed up to the bar.
            The bartender swiveled a bar napkin in front of him. “How’s it goin’ George?”
            A lot of really nice people worked here. Sonny was one of them. “Can’t complain, can’t complain.”
            “Usual?”
            “Damn, you’re good. For somebody who don’t come in here a whole hell of a lot, you sure do have a good memory.”
         Sonny twisted open a miniature bottle of some panther-piss vodka. He poured it into a tall glass. George didn’t pay for premium. Why waste money on advertising? Sonny passed George a vodka and tonic. No fruit.
            “It’s my business, George.” Sonny turned and headed to the other end of the bar. It was a big bar, too, the size of a football field. George turned his attention to the stage. He sure didn’t want to stare at Sonny’s big ass. He saw enough of that at home.
            Edna…
            Linda was performing at the moment. All the girls working the place were stacked. George whistled. He gave a holler. He wanted to let the girls know he was here. That he was coming. He’d bet one of his monthly social security checks that every last one of ‘em could go to New York City and dance on Broadway if they wanted to. If the right person were to come in and discover them. He took a slurp of his drink. The tonic tickled the straggly hairs in his nose. Sonny poured a good, strong one. That was important to George. It took the edge off.
            “Hi, Georgie.” Sandra passed by. She brushed his crotch. She was wearing a pink thong that slid all the way up her naked ass.
         "Whoa down there horsey.” He gave her a flick with his finger. Sometimes the girls got a bit too forward. George didn’t like that. He wanted to be the one in charge. In control. Let Georgie make the decisions for a change. At least for tonight. All right, Sandra? She paid him no mind. She went right on about her business, stopping every so often at a table to deposit a beer or sit on somebody’s lap.
            George called out for Sonny and asked for some change. Leaving a fifty-cent tip on the bar, George high-tailed it to the runway. “Thanks, Sonny.” Sonny threw the change into an empty champagne bucket. It jingled a lonely death as George moved to his favorite spot, right up close to the stage. All the girls knew George, knew he was a good tipper. “Preferred customer,” they called him. They all possessed a sixth sense about those who carried the cash, the money, the green.
           Linda was moving like water. Not one ripple of fat on her. So smooth the way she undulated in an out. Sweet motion. He took out a single bill and folded it neatly in half. Linda got a whiff. She played all-seductive in front of him, pursing her lips, touching her pussy, rubbing her nipples. George’s pecker went petrified. Glad to know it still existed. No shit! Linda bent over backwards for that blasted one-dollar bill. George passed her an extra buck for that move. She took the bill and stuck it in her lacy garter, way up high on the inside of her leg. That beautiful tan thigh. Then, she pivoted on spiked heels and took off after another sniff of green.
           George checked out the competition. Some jerk started smoking next to him. George hated smoke, the smell of it, the stench, the way it stunk up his clothes. He picked up his drink and ambled back to the bar. He could have one more cocktail. That was his limit. It was bad enough he had to brush his teeth, spray Chloraseptic into his mouth and eat a pack of Tic-tacs before picking up the beloved Edna. It was worth it. George hid it under the front seat of the car. In all the years Edna and him had been married, Edna had not once caught on. Not once. Can you believe it?
           By the time George reached the bar, Sonny had already poured another. They exchanged a few more pleasantries. George passed over his empty, and this time handed Sonny a dollar tip. Sonny smiled. Everybody here worked for the green. The booze was rushing fast to his head. He was feeling a little hot, so he loosened up his collar. He spotted Sandra making her way toward him. Now, he was ready.
            “Ready, Freddie?”
           Sandra knew his name was George. She slayed him the way she called him that, all cutesy and all. Like always, he followed her. She walked down a tiny, dim hallway to the back of the club. It got darker as they progressed. George took off his glasses. No night blindness here. He tagged along down some stairs all the while watching Sandra’s ass shimmy. She had long red hair that fell down over her shoulders. All the way to her butt. And, for some damn reason, she always wore pink. Pink everything. Always. Never had George ever seen Sandra dressed in any other color. Pink, pink, pink.
            Personally, George’s favorite color was blue.
            Sandra opened a door. Inside was another entrance. A sign read: DO NOT ENTER.
           They entered. The cramped room had a single bed made up with cheap white sheets and a wooden bedside table next to it. It reminded George of Okinawa. When he was in the Army. The only light came from a red glob floating around in a lava lamp. It oozed up-and-down as George sat on the cot. The mattress squeaked with his weight. He knew the sounds of this bed. He’d memorized the sounds of Sandra.
            She pulled a tiny embroidered square cushion out from under the mattress and positioned it between George’s legs. His woody was begging for a little Sandra attention about now. Unbuckling his belt, she pulled at his zipper exposing George’s boxer shorts.
            “I like your undies, Freddie,” she whimpered.
            That was George’s cue. He leaned back. He watched the fan move in slow motion on the ceiling. He felt the warmth of Sandra’s mouth. He swallowed hard and stretched his arms back as far as they could go.
            Oh, Dear Lord, forgive me my trespasses, as I forgive those…
            “Relax, Georgie. You know I love giving you head.”
           He fingered her soft hair. Thousands upon thousands of baby-fine threads flowed down her naked back. Sweet, sweet movement. She shifted her mouth and allowed her hands to move in tandem, up-and-down. George got a little embarrassed. He’d like to think his pecker was hung as good as the next guy, but honestly, it wasn’t. Sandra made him feel like it was though. She sure must have one hell of an incredible imagination. That’s all George could think. Sometimes, George fell in love with Sandra. Really. And often, more times than he cared to admit, he fantasized Sandra actually fell in love with him.
            “Good boy, Georgie.” She gurgled.
            She felt George stiffen. Sandra knew the rules. She’d somehow created them.
            Edna would never do this. Never. Never, never, never. Not in a million years. Edna didn’t do much of anything these days. She complained a lot about her weight. Daily. How she was gonna go on another diet. Hourly. How she needed to lose weight. She just never let up. How she wanted to get back into one of those old dresses hanging in the closet like dead memories. That wasn’t ever going to happen. Never.
            What about me? George asked.
            “I don’t worry about you, George.” That’s all she would say. What the heck was that supposed to mean?
         George came. A wave of built up frustration released as Sandra swallowed. George didn’t quite believe it himself, but for as long as he’d been coming here (no pun intended) Sandra always finished the exact same way. Every damn time. Somehow, George felt safe with Sandra.
            Afterwards, she would always say, “Yummy, Georgie. You’re better than a facial.”
            Whatever that meant.
           George would chuckle, pass her a twenty, usually with a five-dollar tip. Sandra would slowly stand up, push the cushion back under the bed with her toe and hurry to the door. Before leaving, she’d turn around and give that little girl smile, the one George loved so much.
            “See ya next week, Sugar.”
            Then, she’d quietly slip out the door.
        George listened to the silence for a second. The groan of the bed. The whirl of the fan moving overhead. It brought him back, crashing to the floor like broken glass. Reality. Suddenly, there was Edna. Only Edna. Edna waiting outside the church. Edna standing next to the palm trees on Meeting Street. Edna eating an ice cream cone because he wasn’t there on time. Blaming everything on George. Edna saying to George in that “Edna” way, “Have a good time, George.”
           George pulled up his pants, buckled his belt and left. Quietly.
           He stumbled, sex-drunk and light-headed through the narrow corridor, back up the stairs and into the smoke-filled, pink neon-lit room.
           Yeah, I guess I did, Edna. I had a real nice time.
           “See ya’ next week, George.” Sonny waved good-bye.
           A lot of really nice people worked here. George smiled back. “You too, Sonny. You’ve got one hell of a memory.”
           George had to be honest with himself. Each time he left “Silk Stockings,” he felt a sense of loss, some loneliness. Like a big black cloud pissed on him or something. He didn’t quite understand why he felt that way, he just did. He thought it might have something to do with his life. The way things were right now. The way things had turned out for him. And Edna. For a few minutes inside, George got a chance to escape. Pretend. Be somebody else. Somebody different. Then George wondered, what’s so bad about your life? He could certainly have it a hell of a lot worse.
         He opened the car door and retrieved his oral douche kit from under the seat. He went about the routine of cleaning and spraying and disinfecting his mouth. There. All better. He smiled at himself in the mirror. He put his glasses on, turned over the ignition and before he knew it, he was headed back to Meeting Street. Back to Charleston. Back to Edna.
           As George was driving on Old Towne Road, all those sour thoughts swimming around in his head like pregnant tadpoles, he wasn’t really paying much attention to the fact it was pitch black out. The road in front of him was looking more like a long piece of spent charcoal than a lit up landing strip. A speeding car approached from behind without warning, right up on his ass, nearly blinding him. “Son of a bitch!” George honked his horn several times until the asshole swerved fast around him. George’s heart was racing. His thoughts were jumpy. He readjusted his glasses on his nose. He squinted into the windshield to get a notion of where the road was turning when he saw it.
           On either side of him were large trees. Plantation oaks, Edna called them. He didn’t care what the hell they were called, the mere presence of them was making him nervous. Spanish moss dripped like cobwebs from their branches. It reminded George of witch’s fingers. Being out here, right now, was downright spooky. Gave him the creepers. All those darting shadows were starting to play tricks with his head. He pulled off to the side of the road. There wasn’t much of a shoulder. The car sat parked on some high grass and low-growing weeds. A choir of crickets and frogs serenaded him out the window. Swamps were out there. He must have taken a wrong turn. “Dammit!” He took off his glasses and rubbed his eyes. He looked in the rearview mirror. Nothing. Just a flea market full of blackness. Was it his imagination or was he feeling more drunk than usual tonight? Maybe it was his medications. He would have a talk with his doctor. Maybe he should just turn his ass around and call Edna from that gas station a ways back. Edna kept tabs on their only cell phone. There was a gas station, wasn’t there? Yeah, right. What would he say to her? What would he tell her? Edna, honey, listen, I’m running a bit late…
             Shit!
            Then George caught sight of it again. The first time he tried to ignore it. But he couldn’t the second. A white thing kept darting in and out from behind the tree line. What in Sam hell? He tried to focus, cussing at his night blindness, straining to see more clearly. He wasn’t usually frightened, but this was making the hairs on the back of his neck sing “Dixie.” For a second George thought it might be one of those alien abductions. Edna and him had watched repeats of that show every once and a while. What was it called? Strange Planet. He glanced at the blue-black sky. Stars and constellations and even more stars and constellations. From grade school, he located the Big Dipper.
            He put his attention back to the woods. Pure black. He must have been seeing things. He wiped the sweat from off his forehead with a handkerchief. Thank you, Lord. Out there in the murky distance, the only thing he saw now were miles and miles of trees. And his overactive imagination. Then, it reappeared. Again. Like Tinker Bell from Disney. Instead of it flitting around, this sprite, or whatever the hell it was, would just fall down, only to get right back up, and fall right back down again.
            “Jesus, mother of God!” George screamed into the windshield, his face pressed into the glass. “It’s a person. Holy fuck. Somebody’s in trouble.”
        He scrambled to grab the emergency flashlight from under the seat. In the process, he upset his toothbrush and Thursday night paraphernalia kit. “Shit. Piss. Damn.”
            He opened the car door, knelt down on the gravel road and rummaged through the under guts of the seat. There. Finally. He grabbed the flashlight, checked to make sure it was working and took off. He leaped over the ditch filled with muddy water and briar weeds. He left the car door wide open. With the inside light on, he’d be able to find his way back.
            George had never been one of those sporting kind of guys, but tonight, he did some mighty fancy footwork. He ran like a motherfucker until his sides ached, his heart was pounding. A cool mist had settled over the field. His boots were wet and soggy and heavy. George felt invigorated. Like he did during tactical maneuvers. When he was young and fit and back in the Army. When he had a job. A purpose. A mission. Something other than driving Edna around to a different restaurant every damn night.
            The light from his flashlight cut through the low-hanging trees like a hacksaw. It poked and prodded at the black curtain of forest. He didn’t care. He wasn’t scared. He continued running, moving in the direction of that fallen white thing.
            It was down when he got there, like a deer or a wounded animal. It was hard to tell if it was a boy or a girl until he flashed the light on it. Tiny toes had polish on ‘em. Red nail polish. She wore a bathrobe. Not terrycloth like a towel, but white and cottony and long. It covered most of her body. The bottom half, down by her feet was purple-red in color. The moonlight overhead made it appear crimson. Like a rainbow. He turned and vomited. He excused himself, wiped off his mouth with his sleeve and bent over her. He touched her shoulder and waited for a response. Nothing. He turned her over. He wiped the mud from off her face. Lord, there was an emptiness there. A horrible, horrible emptiness. He shone his light into her eyes. Nothing. He remembered from the military to check to see if the pupils got bigger, or smaller. Dilated. But, they didn’t. Oh, God, give him strength. Her hair was hanging down over her face and shoulders, a tangled, sweaty mess. He could barely make out the face. He pushed her hair back. It was a girl all right, a young one too, no older than twelve, thirteen tops. What should he do? He felt for a pulse. He put his head down close to her chest and listened for breathing. She was, but just barely. Her pulse was weak, a fragile thread, sprinting at a hummingbird’s frantic pace. He needed to get this girl to a hospital. Lickity-split. He picked her up and slung her over his shoulder. She was light, not even a hundred pounds. He started running. He could feel the jolt of adrenaline kick his ass as he headed back toward the car. He could barely see the glow from the inside light. Thank God, he left it on.
            Edna would be waiting. Edna was waiting. What was he to do about Edna? He fought his way across the field through the tall grass. Briars stuck to his pants. His ankles. They stabbed at his skin. He could smell blood. And stale urine. He wanted to throw up again. But he kept running, trying not to think about it. How would he feel if this was his baby girl?
            When he arrived back to his car, he would drive like a banshee to the nearest hospital in Charleston. With or without his damn night blindness. He would deliver this little girl close to where Edna was. He would tell the doctors exactly what happened. Every last detail. Everything. How he found this poor girl in a field off Old Towne Road. He would explain it all. He would. He would tell them he was on his way back from…
            Oh, hell…
            Almost everything.
    

Wednesday, March 5, 2014


NOTHING SACRED

DOUGLAS WICKARD

A sacred practice…
A rite of passage…
A ritual ceremony passed down from generation to generation.
One hundred million of the world’s women are currently affected by this brutal act.

“In her bestselling 1992 novel, Possessing the Secret of Joy, Alice Walker opened a painful door to the attention of the reading public…”

In my new controversial novel NOTHING SACRED, a psychological thriller set against the backdrop of contemporary Charleston, South Carolina… this vicious act comes home. 

Traumatized by the recent separation from his family, and ricocheting back after the untimely death of his partner, Detective Dan Hammer of the Charleston Police Department investigates the bizarre case surrounding a local teenage girl, found half-dead, stumbling along Old Towne Road after dark.

Dr. Sydia Garrison, fifth year surgical resident at The Medical University of South Carolina performs the emergency surgery that saves the young girl’s life. The case quickly turns sour when a second victim is discovered, tied-up in ritualized fashion and not nearly so lucky. The sleepy town of Charleston is about to be put on the map.

Harry Wright’s plan for an early retirement from Quantico, Virginia’s FBI Behavioral Science Unit falls on deaf ears as he undertakes one of his most challenging cases. After a life-long career of profiling serial killers, Harry is forced to leave his wife’s bedside, suffering life’s greatest killer; terminal cancer. The one murderer Harry can’t contain.

In Charleston, a task force is formed. “The Mutilator,” as dubbed by the press attracts national, frenzied attention when the dreaded news arrives: another girl is missing.

Together, Hammer and Wright piece together a scenario of horror, one that appears to be the work of a psychotic, sadistic killer. What emerges is the result of a deep-rooted psychological scar, buried dormant, cross continents and time, back thirty years ago to a small village outside Dakar, Africa, where a small girl and her mother were left abandoned to die. 

Is there nothing sacred?       

**WARNING**
NOTHING SACRED contains graphic descriptions that may be offensive to some readers. 
Parental discretion is advised.

5.15.14


Wednesday, February 19, 2014

Up Close & Personal with DANA GRIFFIN Author of COERCED and THE COVER UP


    I am so excited today to have Dana Griffin on my blogsite. Dana is the author of two chilling novels THE COVER UP and COERCED which I completely enjoyed reading.  I've put together a few questions so we can get to know Dana and his writing a bit better. Here's Dana Griffin!

1.       Writers. Authors. Creative spirits. Why do we do it? Why write?
Do the questions get any easier as we go along? Hmmm… I can’t speak for other writers/authors, but sometimes feel I am a medium that creative spirits chose to tell their story. I never grew out of that game we played as children called, “Let’s pretend.” Writing satisfies that need to continue acting out my fantasies. Or, the fantasies my muse surfaces in my head.   
2.       Kyle Masters. Your protagonist in your first two novels THE COVER UP & COERCED. Who is he and how did he come about? How much of Kyle Masters is really you?
Hang on. That’s three questions at the same time. I guess the questions don’t get easier.
In The Cover-Up, Kyle’s marriage of sixteen years has begun to coast along with no surprises or romance. His teenage son has a life that seldom interacts with his father’s. So Kyle buries himself in his work hoping to find the satisfaction he’s missing in his personal life.
Kyle can’t accept evidence that points to corruption affecting the safety of airline flights. In Kyle’s case, he has to take matters into his own hands because others want to bury their corruption. Because of what he experiences in both books, Kyle learns to appreciate and cherish those close to him.
Kyle and I are similar in that we both abhor influential individuals or organizations that feel they’re above the law or common decency. We both can immerse ourselves into our work and ignore the people in our lives. We both try to see the good in people and lifeand enjoy humor in our lives. I used to have a job similar to Kyle’s. Where we differ is Kyle is more tenacious than I am.
3.       As a professional pilot for many years, you obviously have experience in the world you write about. Where do your ideas come from? Actual scenarios? Fabrication? 
Psst… Don’t tell anyone, but they’re real life experiences that have happened to me. Just kidding.
Prior to writing The Cover-Up, I had a routine check by an FAA inspector who didn’t say much while observing my flight. During the flight I wondered what he’d do if I made a decision he disagreed with and voiced his opinion. What if I followed his advice and it caused an accident. What would the FAA do? I ran with that idea and The Cover-Up came into being.
In January of 2014 the U.S. airlines will have to adhere to new rules governing flight crew duty and rest that came about because of the Colgan Airlines accident in Buffalo, NY. The airlines and their lobby group, Airlines for America, fought hard to oppose a rule change. I ruminated on just how far they’d go to prevent the change if there was another incident or accident in which crew fatigue was a contributing factor. Thus, Coerced was born.
So, the short answer is my ideas are fabrication based on industry knowledge that I’ve blown up for literary fun.
4.       For some reason, people want to know… your habitat...your writerly habits?
Don’t touch anything on my mess of a desk. It may look like chaos, but I know where everything is.
I like to write with popular music playing for the first draft. During the editing process, I need quiet so I can hear the words in my head. My wife reads a lot of the story aloud to me so I can hear the flow of the words I might miss if reading on my own.
Since I travel a lot, I write in hotel rooms, or in the terminal between flights. During Coerced, I wrote some of the first draft longhand while riding as a passenger on flights. I find writing longhand cumbersome, but I can put actual words to a scene in my head rather than waiting when I can type it.
When home I try to write in the morning. When I’m traveling, I sit at my laptop whenever I’m not flying.
5.       Self-promotion, marketing and selling books. What’s your approach?
This is the part of being an author I love/hate. I’d prefer to spend my time dabbling at another story, instead of tweeting or posting on Facebook, or looking for another group that’ll promote or review my books. Yet at the same time, I’ve become acquainted with people, such as you, who I wouldn’t have if I didn’t self-promote on social media.
To answer the question, I really don’t have an approach. I tweet my books, and those of supportive authors, on Twitter and Facebook and post reviews of books I’ve read on my website and Goodreads. I took a break while finishing Coerced, but I post on my website interviews of characters from novels I’ve enjoyed. I hope the reader of the interview might discover my books that way. Look for an interview of Sami Saxton soon.
6.       Share your writerly dreams?
The ultimate dream is every airport book store I walk into I’ll see my books on their shelves.
7.       If you could describe your creative writing in four words, what would those words be?
Only four? Sheez! Vibrant, thought-provoking, engrossing, I-wish-as-good-as-Douglas-Wickard’s. (Thank you for that!) Does the last word count as one since it was hyphenated?
Drumming fingers.
Fun, engaging, exciting, worthwhile.  (I agree with all those!)
8.       As indie authors, we self-publish and wait…what do you wait for?
The royalty payment. No, seriously, to hear someone read my story and enjoyed it.
9.       The editing process. When do you know the book is finished?
Are they ever finished? Isn’t there always a better way to write a sentence, or align a plot point that could be emphasized better, or show characters’ personality in a more illuminating way?
When I’ve brought the plot to a logical conclusion, the sentences are worded correctly, and I’m debating if a character should frown, or quirk an eyebrow, then it is done.
10.   What’s next?
I’ve begun the research for another novel that will have an airline accident Kyle and Lori will investigate. The parties involved (the airline, the FAA, the aircraft manufacturer) try to limit their portion of the cause by exposing the other parties’ culpability. The working title is, A Calamity.


Thank you, Douglas. I appreciate the opportunity to tell others about my books and writing process. Readers of your blog can find out more about me at my website:dana-griffin.com. Or follow me on Twitter: https://twitter.com/DanaGriffin97or friend me on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/dana.griffin.311. My books can be purchased at Amazon: http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_ss_i_1_7/181-0634506-2293737?url=search-alias%3Dstripbooks&field-keywords=dana+griffin&sprefix=Dana+gr%2Cstripbooks%2C240

Dana, thank you. All the best to you and to your success. I can't wait to see your books at every airport as well. I tried uploading some photos of your books and a photo of you, but for some reason it wouldn't upload, so folks, please use the links above. 

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

I'LL PASS! Nostalgia is an expensive commodity in publishing.


A few years back, I ran into Pavilions, a supermarket chain located in Los Angeles to pick up a bottle of wine to take to a friend’s house for dinner. At the checkout counter on display were books; current, hard back, name-brand, bestselling authors. You know, the space usually reserved for randy, tawdry, name-calling tabloids was now sporting novels. Interesting! A top-selling author I followed was among the writers showcased. I grabbed MY copy immediately, thankful there was still one left and held it protectively in my arms, not wanting to soil the beautiful jacket cover by placing it on the conveyer belt. I’d been reading this author for years, since her first novel skyrocketed into the literary super-stardom forefront. I’d followed her complete series. I grew to love her characters, her stories, the settings, wondering where she would take her cast and the plot next. Her books became comfort food for my eyes, and my world. I would submerge myself for hours in her vivid passages and be transported, quite literally to another place, another time, another realm…ahhh, the power and beauty of the written word.  Then, something shifted. Either I lost interest, got bored, or my reading style changed…whatever occurred, I stopped reading. But, that feeling, that magic, that sensory memory remained intact. All those rich, intoxicating places I’d been catapulted to in my past continued to surface each time I saw her name, BOLDLY spelled-out on her new jacket cover, her new release. And each time, I gobbled up my copy, compulsively shelling out good hard cash for a visit to nostalgia.  I’d get cozy in my reading chair and prepare myself to once again be devoured by the words…
and stop reading…
I think I got to page 25 with that book.  Similar best-selling author’s line my shelves now, hardback editions purchased, started and put down.  The books became more a coffee table decoration than entertainment. Dog-eared flaps turned over, a reminder of the last page I visited. All of them…unread.  Nostalgia is an expensive commodity in publishing.
So, with the brewing anticipation of yet one more highly-awaited novel coming from another decorated, best-selling veteran (the current darling of the literary world), I too sat, hungry, waiting, salivating for its imminent release. Even though, her massive, historic, highly publicized debut sat unread, a relic in hard back, left forgotten in some musty basement where I once resided years ago. At the time I felt weird. Why couldn’t I finish what I started? What was wrong with me? Obviously, I was inferior, unable to keep up with a book that held New York City’s literary circles hostage. But alas, I was a kid then, on a mission, in a hurry going nowhere, preferring hard-impact aerobics to flexible, versatile yoga. Now, my pace, as well as my age had slowed down. Now, I was ready.
The saving grace of Kindle – eBooks. I can download a sample. So, with heightened curiosity I waited, expectant, treading water in the pre-publishing press wave, awaiting delivery into my steadfast Amazon device. I began reading, at lunch actually, and got lost, immediately in the reverie of her words, her well-crafted sentences, the descriptive passages… yes, yes, yes…this is it!  Finally! Several shake my head moments. The stunning landscape of her creative vision, her feelings, and her thoughts...inspiring.  Captivating. The description was so evocative, so real, so raw, so there. Then, something strange occurred. Again. The very thing I was admiring, (relishing in fact) the element I’d been completely taken over by was now tying me down, restricting me, keeping me a prisoner.  I couldn’t get to the next paragraph without re-reading. The book was written so precisely, each minuscule second displayed photographically on the page to the point I began questioning…really? Do I need to know that?
I made it to the end. Of the sample.
But this time…I’ll pass! 

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

AN EXCERPT FROM ENCOUNTER





*** EXCERPT FROM ENCOUNTER ***

Chicago, Illinois
June 28, 2010
7:45 AM

    “C’mon you guys, let’s go!”
     Rhonda raced around the high-rise apartment picking up clutter left over from the night before. Bristol and Sammy were suspiciously quiet, for a change, sequestered in their separate bedrooms, supposedly getting ready for school – a summer program -- conveniently located around the corner off State Street at the Holy Name Cathedral. The television was on; CNN was broadcasting loudly from the kitchen. A bearded newsman was reporting from New Orleans. Hurricane Alex was wrecking havoc on the Louisiana coastline. He stood, drenched, dripping with water, holding a microphone under the flimsy shelter of an over-sized  yellow tarp. Rhonda glanced outside. The eerie storm warnings in effect until after midnight the night before had miraculously blown over. But, you never knew, the Windy City was a chameleon. One minute the weather could be sunny and serene, a Photoshop image of perfection, and the next, an ice surge could migrate from northern Canada and play severe damage to the City.
    “Okay, you two, I am not going to tell you again.” She checked for messages, a text...an email. Nothing. She hadn’t heard a peep from Alex. Not since last evening. Strange. He had to be up. She checked the clock, a two hour time difference in California. His itinerary for the day was full, jam-packed; one executive meeting after another, one more significant than the next: career making opportunities, introductions, presentations, all of which needed his input, his support…him. This wasn’t like Alex.  Alex awoke early, hours before, nervous, apprehensive, practicing his speech, organizing his work, buffing his shoes, his suit, choosing the right tie; the perfect match. Alex was immaculate…sometimes, too much so.
    Bristol ran into the living room. Her long, blonde hair was pulled back loosely in a ponytail. Rhonda watched on in amazement. Unbelievable how they grow up so quickly.
    “Grab your jacket. It’s chilly outside. Sammy, come on!”
    Sammy slammed the door to his room and strolled cocksure into the living room. He carried a backpack over his shoulder. He wasn’t amused at having to get up so early, even if it were his idea to register for the school’s summer activities. The handle of his tennis racket jetted out the top of his bag. He snatched an apple from the counter as he passed by.  “Okay, okay.”
    Rhonda took one last look around the apartment before closing and locking the door. The elevator took forever, stopping at each floor. She leaned over and secured Bristol’s jacket tight around her neck. Bristol was eight years old and prone to strep throat. The slightest breeze could catapult her into a high fever and swollen glands. Rhonda took extra precautions.
    The school was close by, right around the corner from their apartment complex. She would take them over, drop them off, and then mosey over to the Starbucks on State Street and have herself a latte, a clandestine moment just for herself.    
    A mass of morning tenants exited the elevator in front of them as they waited, patiently. Then, they hurried around the corner to the lobby. Dennis, the morning door attendant, stood watch. He sat like a Mayor behind the imposing circular desk. "Doesn't feel much like summer out there today, Mrs. Kitas." His voice was deep, bass, sweet with soul.  They pushed through the revolving glass doors onto Superior Street.
    “Thanks, Dennis.”
    Outside, Rhonda nudged Bristol and Sammy toward the intersection at State Street. It was chilly. The weather felt more like fall than summer. The air had that fresh, clean, crisp, burnt-leaves sort of smell. A welcome change before the sweltering layer of humidity descended upon the City, and the hot heat of summer arrived.  She held both of their hands at the streetlight; a habit practiced early on since they were children. Sammy pulled away. God forbid one of his friends should catch him holding onto his mother’s hand.
    “I don’t bite.” Rhonda inwardly smiled. At twelve, he was becoming quite the man. Tall, like his father, with, thick, wavy, sand-colored hair that fell poised, naturally, to perfection. And that smile. God, he could light up a room, from any angle. He was definitely a looker.
    “Mom, I’m almost thirteen. I don’t need to hold on to your hand anymore.”
    “Oh, excuse me, Mister Man!”
    Bristol was perfectly content in holding on. Firmly. She enjoyed watching Sammy act out his impending adolescence, being the older, tough guy. She preferred residing in that in-between stage, no longer the baby, but also not a grown up, ready to take on the world and the responsibilities that came with it. She wanted to continue to believe in magic; that whimsical element called fantasy, where fairy tales do exist and actually do come true.  Enchantment!
    Past the statuesque church, finally finished from all of its exhausting renovations, they ran around the corner to Chicago Street. Sammy recognized a friend waiting outside and waved. He turned to Rhonda for a look of approval. Please, Mom?  Still not quite the man. He still required a sense of direction, a reassuring nod from his mom saying, “it’s okay.”
    “Go,” she insisted. “Have fun. I’ll see you in a couple hours.”
    Sammy took off running, a new found pep in his step.
    “Okay, you,” Rhonda bent down and connected with Bristol face-to-face. “You have a great time today, you hear? Bring me back something amazing from your art class. I’ll frame it. Okay?”  
    “But, what do you want, so I know?” Bristol wiped her nose with the end of her sleeve.   
    “Surprise me. And, by the way, you did an awesome job with your hair this morning. Tres, tres chic.
    “Thanks, Mom.” Bristol turned and skipped toward the entrance. Her pony-tail swayed to-and-fro in the nippy air.
    Rhonda turned toward Superior Street, the congested intersection of Chicago and State. Busses passed by; the insides cramped like canned fish with early morning commuters. Foot pedestrians waited at traffic lights; taxicabs honked and blared, scouring for random fares. Rhonda took a deep breath. She checked her cell phone. This was weird. It was eight in the morning and still no word from Alex. Not even a text message. In the fifteen years they’d been married, Alex had never forgotten to call her, particularly before an important meeting like NBC. She pulled up his cell phone number and pressed enter.  Voice message. “Hey, it’s your wife. It’s nine o’clock here in Chi-town. Where are you? I thought you were going to call me? Oh well, good luck this morning. Give me a holler when you get a minute. Love you.”
    And, she did. Love at first sight sort of thing. They’d met in college. Alex was nerdy, a good-looking marketing major and her, a goody-two-shoes from Wisconsin studying for a degree in art. Art history to be precise? With her white, porcelain skin, a face full of freckles that tap-danced across her cute, upturned nose, and a mop of strawberry-blonde hair, they quickly connected, got together and became an item. Chicago was clean; a Midwest City not quite as intimidating as Manhattan or San Francisco, so they made the decision to put roots down. They shared similar aspirations: make enough money, high-tail it to the suburbs, purchase a house, raise a family, thrive. Alex’s career took off, like gangbusters, while Rhonda’s stalled. She got pregnant with Sammy and never saw the inside of another lecture hall. Although, she did stay active by visiting the diverse and eclectic art shows that circulated through the City.
    Rhonda ended the call, deposited her cell phone back into her coat pocket and crossed Chicago Street. The small, brick-paved courtyard of Starbucks came into view as she turned the corner. A few tables were available outside as she pushed through the squeaky fence, entered the busy store and took her place in line.
    “What can I get you?” the male counter person asked. “Usual?” 
    God, was she that predictable?
    Slightly embarrassed by her own rigid, day-in and day-out routine, Rhonda answered, “Why not?”   
    He smiled back, his teeth enormous. Braces filled his entire mouth.
    She strayed from the counter, perusing various brand-name items on discount, arranged on shelves in overly-organized fashion. She positioned herself close to the pickup area. Within seconds, a pair of masculine arms slinked around her waist and pulled her in close. A moment of divine weakness -- should she or shouldn’t she? And then that unanimous feeling of letting go.  She grabbed hold of the grip snaking around her sides. Short, prickly stubble of a beard tickled at her neck; soft lips nibbled. Wet intoxicating kisses.
    “Right on time,” the voice cooed. He turned Rhonda around, and they kissed.  His tongue entered her mouth, probing, searching, revisiting known territory. A few people waiting next to them took offense.
    Jake was Rhonda’s friend with benefits. Okay, so the sex with Alex had died. Dried up. She wondered about Alex, his sexuality. Did he still find her attractive? How many nights could they go over the same tedious topics, ad nauseam, to come up with the same monotonous answers? The same boring retorts. She tried to understand. But, it was frustrating for her, and equally debilitating for Alex. He would answer the incrimination's the same way, always -- the stress, the job, the hours -- whatever. Rhonda was bored. Deprived. Sexually abandoned. She felt unattractive to the point of seeking out a shrink. On the down low. She would get answers from somebody, come hell or high water.
    “Rhonda! Latte, skim milk with a maple scone.” The clerk yelled out. In all the heated excitement, she hadn’t noticed the guy’s nose ring. Or, the large, circular, black holes; the size of copper pennies, punched out of each of his earlobes. Ouch!
    Rhonda slipped away from Jake’s grip and fetched her items. “You want something?”
    “You."
    Damn, he knew all the right things to say, especially to a sexually denied woman. She smiled coquettishly and collected her things at the counter. “Thanks.” 
    “Let’s get the fuck out of here.” Jake lived around the corner on Chestnut Street in a one-bedroom pied-a-terre located on the second floor of a walk-up apartment building. Rhonda’s new holding pen for adultery. Time was nonexistent. He helped her with her goodies, pulled her, carefree and somewhat guilty from the store and allowed her to cuddle up beside him as they ran the few blocks to his place.
    She had met Jake at that Starbucks, sitting at that patio, reading the New York Times and, for the record, minding her own business. She didn’t pay him much attention. Not at first. Why should she? He was years younger, a baby. But, he protested. Persisted. And, sooner than she would care to admit, he'd led her down the cougar, primrose path of infidelity.
    Jake’s body was muscular. He had a swimmer’s, lean build, not overly worked-out but smooth, slender, and deliciously sensuous. His dark, moody eyes and his brown curly, longish hair, was so, so different from Alex.
    His skin was dark, Moroccan cocoa, and his body had an ever-so-slight scent to it, sexy, manly, like ripe musky fruit.  He couldn’t be more than thirty. And, she refused to ask his age out of sheer embarrassment that he might even be younger. His fingers were mid-western, farmer-thick, and his torso was bare, without a stalk of hair. She wondered if he shaved. Could a body be so hairless? Hers had more hair on it than his. He indulged Rhonda, spoiled her shamelessly with an electrical surge of sexual attention she’d been craving, starved for. He allowed her to feel once again the finer details of being a woman; waxing, shaving her legs, exercising at the apartment complex’s gymnasium. The Stairmaster had become her new best friend, huffing-and-puffing before noon, at least three times a week, as well as the occasional Pilate’s class. Somebody, thank God, was finally paying attention to her, and damn, it felt good.
    They laughed and giggled up the two flight of stairs, keys out and ready. They tumbled like drunken sailors into the undersized living room. His pants were unbuckled and had fallen around his ankles as they entered. He shuffled into the adjoining bedroom. Rhonda set her coffee cup and scone down on the floor. She unbuttoned her blouse, flung her jacket on the only chair in the room, and left a trail of disrobed clothes to his perfectly made bed. Morning sunlight filtered in through open blinds covered in sheer red, (whore red) curtains.   
    Sexy!
    She stood in front of him, nude, witnessing his nakedness. She was wet with excitement. Jesus! Absolutely mad for him.  He unbuttoned her jeans and helped slide them down over her hips, collecting her nothing thong with his thumb in the process. He bent over and allowed her to hold onto his back as she stepped free from each leg. Then, he reached behind her and with such ease, such grace, he lifted her onto the bed. He began tasting and licking, teasing, and exploring. In the background, soft, jazz played. A sultry saxophone serenaded.
    Rhonda was beside herself with pleasure and extreme guilt. She would allow herself this one happy diversion, this one act of betrayal. Obviously, she loved Alex, adored him, and wanted to be with him, absolutely. Forever. What she didn’t want was to grow older and experience one more year without sex. Any sex. It caused anguish. Such torment. Her new, expensive therapist was the first one to organize Rhonda’s thoughts. The positives and the negatives divided into two symmetrical blame free columns. Alex was the perfect husband, a generous provider, a wonderful man and a fantastic father. True or false? True, of course. Could she, would she, divorce Alex just because the sex between them sucked?
    “Yes, yes, oh my God,” she screamed out. Jake buried his tongue deep into her center. He was definitely practiced, educated in the fine art of cunnilingus.   
    No, she didn’t want a divorce. Of, course not. But, she would have some fun on her own. She was sure Alex was enjoying his own secret amusement, whatever that was.
    Rhonda was on top now, straddling Jake. He massaged her breasts; every so often lifting his head, slightly from the pillow to suck on one of her extended nipples. His toes would flex; his legs tense, and then relax as she lowered herself down upon him. He was the perfect size, not too large, but not too small and completely and utterly giving. He wanted to pleasure her. Giving Rhonda satisfaction seemed to give him fulfillment, at least, she hoped so. He was smiling when they came. Together. The sensation of his cock pulsating thick inside her made her come instantly.
    What a turn on! 
    They remained in that satiated, heated state until his hardness softened, and squirmed free. She rolled off and lay beside him. A ceiling fan twirled, ticked above them. She held onto this young man’s body. Reaching over for a kiss, he positioned his arm around her shoulder.
    She could fall asleep like this...   
    Then, the jarring noise of her cell phone.   
    “Jesus. Probably Alex.” Rhonda jumped up from the bed and ran down the hallway to collect her coat, which had fallen on the floor. She grabbed her mobile, looked at the number. 415 area code. Okay, San Francisco. “Hello, this is Rhonda,” she said, out of breath, flushed.
    “Mrs. Kitas?” A male voice asked. 
    “Yes.” A worried look came over her face. “How can I help you?” She turned her nakedness away from Jake, who was now sitting up on one elbow watching, listening.  His body was on display, a prime piece of exquisite, human, masculine art.
    “Mrs. Kitas, this is Dennis Plumber from NBC. Have you heard from your husband this morning? He hasn’t shown up for his nine o’clock meeting.”  

* * *

    Back at the apartment, Rhonda took a moment to regroup. Process. She needed space, some privacy, some down-time to think about this new situation dumped into her lap. She needed to at least try to make some sort of sense out of it. Luckily, she had a few hours before needing to pick up Sammy and Bristol. First things first. Don’t panic! A simple phone call to Alex would clear this whole mess up, lickety-split. Perhaps he’d overslept, which was completely unlike him, Alex being the early riser in the family. She rolled through the contacts on her cell phone until landing on ICE (In Case of Emergency) and pushed CALL. Several seconds passed by before the phone connected. Four rings then Alex’s familiar voice, baritone, grounded, sturdy. Comfortable.   
    Alex, where the fuck are you?   
    In the shower, Rhonda systematically rehashed each second they’d last spent together. She went over the details, raking for facts, compiling a mental agenda, logging the events of their last day. Sunday morning, the usual, routines like coffee, the Chicago Tribune, breakfast with the children, packing. All, very ordinary, mundane, every day sorts of things. She did remember asking him why he needed to leave so early when his meetings didn’t start until Monday? Why not hop a plane later that evening? His response was typical Alex. He needed time to organize his paperwork, prepare. Again, Nothing out of the ordinary. At least, not for Alex.
    Rhonda visualized him; sitting on their bed, watching him stow the neatly pressed shirts, his ties, socks, the new shoes they’d just purchased for good luck at Neiman Marcus, the Brooks Brother suit.
    Drying off, a tinge of guilt resurfaced. Her sexual liaison with Jake, the carefree sex, the feel of Jake's hands firm upon her breasts; gentle but rough, so in tune with her body, her needs. It was all still so fresh, so yummy, so steamy, so tantalizing, a dizzy, blurry memory. Her clumsy, guilt-ridden attempt to scrub away his scent in the shower was futile.
    In the living room, she looked out the sliding glass doors onto their wide terrace, the breathtaking view of Chicago planted in front of her like a Hollywood backdrop. She'd wanted, asked, pleaded for, in fact, a higher floor. But, Alex remained steadfast, preferring the lower levels. They compromised, the big "C" on 18. They were good together. They balanced each other out; her weaknesses, his strengths.
    In Alex’s office, she sat at his desk. She swiveled back-and-forth in his worn leather chair. She viewed with envy his immaculate organization. Everything arranged perfectly in its own individual spot.   
     Virgo! Everything has a place; every place has a thing!
     She rifled through several ledgers scouring for a clue, a hint, some evidence, anything. She opened his laptop. The icon located dead center on the screen with his name neatly printed beneath it. Password? No idea. She opened the drawers, pulled out papers, files.
    Nothing. She walked to the closet, separated the doors, the shelves used for storage, paper, toner, ink cartridges, all displayed neatly, meticulously, labels facing forward, everything in order.
    Oh, Alex…  
    She grabbed her cell phone in the living room, scrolled to the Google landing page and typed in the Fairmont Hotel located in San Francisco. The webpage loaded within seconds showing the iconic building located at the corner of Mason Street and right below it, the number for reservations. She pressed the local listing. She didn't want to get lost in some international Fairmont answering pool and have to wait for yet one more redirection.
    “Good morning. Could you please connect me to Alex Kitas’s room? Yes, thank you, I’ll hold.”   
    She looked around their spacious apartment. She was scared. Lonely. Alone.    
    Where was he?        
    The operator connected her.  After several rings, an automated voice alerted her that the guest she was trying to contact was not available. If she wanted to leave a message, she could.
    She hung up and immediately redialed.
    “Yes, hi, this is Rhonda Kitas, again, Alex Kitas’s wife. You just connected me to his room; I think it was you. Anyway, he’s not there. I have a funny question to ask. Has anybody at the front desk seen Mr. Kitas this morning? His work just called saying he hasn’t shown up, and I’m beginning to get a little worried. Yes, I’ll hold. Thank you.” She began biting the nail of her index finger, a bad habit she’d dropped years ago. This was so not Alex. As disconnected as they were sexually, they were still a team, partners, swans for life in this dance called marriage. Or, so she thought.
    “Hi, yes. Last night? Okay. Did anybody witness him coming back to the hotel? When is he due to checkout? Tomorrow. Okay, thank you.” She ended the call and flopped onto their overstuffed sofa. Her mind was racing. Panic was slowly setting in, taking up residence. She pressed Alex’s cell phone number, again. The familiar rings, his voice.
    “Alex, you are fucking scaring me right now! Please pick up. Where are you? Your job is calling, and I’m a basket case.” She ended the call and glanced around the living room. Time. She needed time to know what to do. Should she call the police? Missing persons? Jesus. Her stomach churned, gurgled. She peeked at the wall clock hanging in the dining room. It was almost two. She hadn’t eaten a thing. Not even that fucking scone left forgotten on Jake’s floor.  Right now, her appetite seemed the least of her worries.
    Once again, she opened her phone and began texting a message.
    Alex, please, I’m worried. Call me immediately!   
    Maybe he was leaving her. Maybe he found out about Jake. But how? And, why wouldn’t he mention it to her. Some things you don’t reveal. Can’t! Some things are better left unsaid.
    Oh, by the way, honey, I got laid by this young, hot Moroccan stud!    
    Yeah, not the sort of thing you bring up to your husband of fifteen years.  
    Even though Rhonda wasn’t on the best of terms with Alex’s parents she thought she’d better reach out to them. They lived in Downers Grove, a suburb of Chicago. Alex might have called them to say he was leaving her, their life together, the children.  She didn’t know. She needed answers. Rhonda was not one to live with indecisiveness easily, even if the news wasn’t what she wanted to hear, or expected. A direct “yes” or “no” worked perfectly fine.
    “Hi, Jean, it’s Rhonda. Yes, the children are fine, thanks for asking…listen, I’m calling because Alex went to San Francisco on some business yesterday and this morning I received a call from his work saying he hadn’t shown up. I was wondering if maybe you’d heard something from him.” She ran fingers through her wet, curly hair. “Hmmmm.  Okay. Well, if you do hear something, let me know.” Pause. “I’m sure it’s nothing to get alarmed about, Jean. Just thought you might know something. Thanks.” She flung her phone on the sofa and walked into their bedroom. She threw her robe on the bed and began dressing. She opened the closet and grabbed a pair of slacks. She noticed her suitcase perched on the top shelf, stored away.
    Their trip to Bermuda together, the last time she packed it, the family vacation. Atlantis! Water slides and mermaids… She pulled open the top drawer of her dresser and reached for a sweater, gray, soft, easy. Again, she glanced at the black stow away.  It taunted her.  
    She closed the door and went into the living room. Her cell phone on the table began buzzing. Finally! She ran to it, tapped the screen to read who the message was from. It was a text from Jake, confidential, secret. 
    Thanks for the Scone. Hope we can meet again for coffee. Real soon.
    Her thoughts were so far away from Jake at this moment. She didn’t even respond. In the past, she would have answered, immediately, a short, cute, flirtatious line…some playful banter.  Now, her thoughts were on her children, her chaotic life, her missing-in-action husband.
    Rhonda made a Google search for American Airlines. She pressed CALL.
    An automated answering system guided her through an obstacle course of choices before she reached the voice of a real live human being.  The man answered, expectantly.

    “I’d like to book a flight, please, from Chicago."  Pause. "San Francisco."


Friday, October 4, 2013

SUCCUBUS - HALLOWEENPALOOZA WICKARD STYLE!


…it was only one glass, one large Bordeaux glass of red Sangria, sweet, and fruity, and full of tiny chunks of orange, lemon, and ripe green apple. Surely, one glass off Sangria could NOT have provoked those feelings – hallucinated that touch, those cold, bony fingers, moving surely, bit by bit, as if planned, driven almost, up my naked legs, wanting, searching as if in need of something, somebody to hold onto. Trust me, I was not under the influence of alcohol. Not to that degree, anyway. Not to the legal level of intoxication to have created those kind of delusions?

Never!

I was new. New to the City. New to Los Angeles. New to my job -- that monotonous, repetitious, clock in-and-clock out profession -- standing at my large, white, counter, located in the basement of that huge metropolitan hospital, without windows, centrifuging, swirling, tipping and twirling, vial-after-vial of blood, and blood, and more blood. Wearing my white, starched laboratory jacket (very Dr. Kildare), notating results, entering ‘within normal limits’, documenting my ‘two cents’ onto lab chits, and lab reports, and lab results…ad nauseum. Argh!

Francine warned me. From the beginning. My longtime friend from Ventura. She entered the apartment tentative, hesitantly and instantly began twitching. Me, dragging her, pulling her further into the living room, excited beyond words at sharing my first apartment in Los Angeles with her. She urged me, pleaded, please…“before you move into this place, please, please, please…clear out the energy of the spirit who lives here. A woman is trapped in this hellish purgatory, and she's unable to let go…”

What? 

I scoffed, I laughed, I made fun of her ridiculous premonitions. Francine could be dramatic! Very! She proclaimed herself a ‘witch.’ A good witch, of course, but nevertheless. She performed séances with candles positioned circularly around us.  She channeled spirits forth. Frames rattled, pictures fell, and candles extinguished themselves without the benefit of a breath or a wind or the barest of breezes. She flirted, (far too much, for my taste) with Mr. Ouija Board, sniffing out answers, searching affirmations, and digging up assents. She was meticulous, a divine creature, with a hard, soft spot for black men, a nurturer’s soul for bruised fruit, particularly angels with broken wings, yet she lacked that same love and grace she gave so freely to others, toward herself. Francine’s lips were large and plump and outlined in black. Perfectly. She colored well within the lines using a bevy of robust fall colors: brown, burnt orange, deep-set purple, and red. She smelled of the exotic, a flower out of place, a bit of jasmine, sage, a torrent of musk skillfully entertwined so as not to suspect…what?   

I loved the apartment. At first sight. Well, actually it was only a studio. The Russian elderly renting the space roamed the grounds wearing humongous pink curlers, piled high, tucked tightly under a restrictive band of a flimsy black hairnet. She wore slippers, I recall, the color being white. They were fluffy, always clean, with a band of cotton stretched across the arch of her porcelain-white foot. Each time she took a step, they would slosh. Slush, slosh, slush, slosh… Her smile was welcoming.  Contagious.

In addition, the price was right!

I took it!

The studio was unfurnished and barren. Recently renovated, it had nice, shiny, hardwood floors and nostalgic crown molding connecting the high, loft like beam ceilings. California sunlight drenched the room, bleeding in from the large floor-to-ceiling windows. Freshly painted a bone-color, the space was immaculate and smelled of Mr. Clean. My possessions were few. Blankets, a few flattened pillows, a sleeping bag (one I purchased at the Navy exchange in Port Hueneme) and some sheets, all neatly organized and piled in layers against the wall.

Slightly woozy, a bit fuzzy that night, but not drunk --I was NOT wasted! – I climbed the several stairs, the outside cement stairwell lining the three-story house. I went through my evening rituals, as usual. I was militarily trained, used to a routine; the brushing of my teeth, the flush of the toilet, the lying down of my sleeping bag in the main room creating a cushiony foundation against the hard wooden surface of the floor. Next, several layers of sheets; sheets collected and bought on the cheap from fast, quick Latino shops around the area, and finally my blankets. My pillows, the ones I took from base had been with me for years, my companions, always there, alongside me. Okay, I admit it, my security blanket. I negotiated a comfortable position, one pillow tucked firmly between my legs, and gazed out the curtain less windows at a twinkling Hollywood. My Hollywood. My new home. A kaleidoscope of stars and colors and hopeful dreams blended in the street sounds below, the distant whine of a hemorrhaged siren jackknifed my reverie. The jagged limbs from a Maple tree scratched against the surface of one of the giant windows. I ignored it, I ignored it all and slid into a comfortable light sleep...

Then…a stirring. Different. Unsettling. The rustling of blankets, sheets being raised, fanned and pushed off me, to the side.  I woke up. I took a moment, a brief second to do an assessment, feel, hear… where am I? Is this really happening? Did somebody break in? Then, the touch, that touch, those fingers, those cold, bony appendages working, scratching their way, clawing up my ankles to my calves and then digging into my back thighs. Definitely, this was happening. I was frozen. A panic set in.  

My mind leapt for answers. Francine! Francine pleading, saying, loudly, proprietarily with force: “Spirit, be gone!” three times, sequentially.  “Spirit, be gone! Spirit, be gone!”

By now, the covers and cheap blankets were off me, bunched together at my sides. My buttocks and lower back were completely exposed. I knew I had to stand. I knew I had to unlock the grip this thing had upon me. I raised myself to my elbows and crawled, military style forward until I felt the cold comfort of the wooden floor. It sobered me up. Quickly. Next, I thrashed my legs, as if in a spasm, eliminating any hold this creature had. The wails, the cries, the muted screams writhing in anguish below me as I stood, naked with only my t-shirt and underwear and screamed out into the night sky… “Spirit, be gone! Spirit, be gone! Spirit, be gone!” Instantly, the three windows unlatched and opened. A Twilight Zone moment. Night air flooded the space, whirling around my body, circling the room, freezing my senses.  

I dressed quickly. I ran down the cement steps, two at a time. I couldn’t get to my car fast enough. I drove to my friend’s apartment, the one who had earlier shared Sangria with me, and pounded on her door. She sat, mesmerized while I told her the details of my story. I slept that night, at her place, on her sofa. Awake. Aware. Unable to go to sleep. She kept the heat on, even during the summer months. I remember uncovering myself, but then pulling the blankets back tight, close around my neck. To this day, I rarely go uncovered. The thought still scares me. Petrifies me, actually.

I moved from that apartment several weeks later. As I carried my few belongings to the car, the landlord caught up with me and asked why? with a look of genuine concern on her face. I asked only one question. “What’s the history of that space?” She told me the truth. She told me of an elderly woman in her 80’s who had lived in the house most of her life, for many years with her husband. He died. She committed suicide in my apartment, which at the time was the attic. Her husband’s belt had been tied securely around her throat. She stood on a chair. She attached the belt to a makeshift bar and dropped. All she would have had to do to save her life…was stand up. But, she chose, not to.

“Spirit, be gone!”

Saturday, August 17, 2013

 ENCOUNTER
coming OCTOBER 31!
HALLOWEEN!


You know him...
known him.
You met in college... you were sweethearts, lovers... remember?
He wasn't your first...
But you vowed he'd be your last.
For over fifteen years you've been married to him...
had children by him...
created a life together with him...
Then...
he takes a business trip.
Nothing unusual.
A normal occurrence for his profession...
The problem is...
he doesn't return...

EVER!


* * *

San Francisco
2010
Five men.
All mysteriously disappear.
No clues...
no ransom notes...
no bodies...
All vanished... without a trace.

ENCOUNTER
Are you available tonight... for a thriller?


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